Today's Friday the 13th

**Background music: Farah Asyikin - 'Kembali Lagi Di Sisimu'

My birthday is coming up soon. Personally, I don't feel like celebrating much. It's less fun if you're turning over 30+ of age.

If you're asking what I want for my birthday, I'll definitely say I don't know. Coz I really don't bother about presents anymore. I rather get them my own way, I suppose. I rather spend it with my own money. What I would like to do on my birthday... I think I wanna spend the day with my family & hub. If I was given a birthday cake, I'd like it if I could blow the candles & cut the cake with my mom. Why? I think it would be wise to spend a birthday with the one who gave birth to you. It's not just my 'birth'day, but I do share the day with my mom. She held me on my 'birthdate' and made sure I'm alive, literally.

I slept late last night and watched this 2004 chick flick '13 going on 30'. And I can't help feeling the message it sent through the movie itself. I do somehow feel like I missed out on some part of my life. What I'm trying to say is I'm 30 now... I need some changes over this life of mine. Will I stay living this way for the rest of my life. What I want or need is a massive change that could turn my perspective around. I wanna please people around me at the same time. I wanna make my parents happy. I want to prove something that could affect everyone around me. I wanna show it to the world.

I want something that I can look forward to for the rest of this life of mine. I want an addition to my very own family tree. That's all that I could wish for in this lifetime.